Sweet Dreams Are (not) Made of This

Tonight is one of those nights where my mind just wont quit. I was in bed trying to sleep for about 2 hours. didn't help that my lovely husband to be was sleeping like a baby right next to me. I even tried to talk to him the couple of times that he stirred, thinking if he knew i couldn't sleep, he wouldn't be able to sleep either. ha! right.

And it's not even like I have a big day tomorrow. Or I have one specific thing that I'm anxious about or need to solve. My mind just WANTS to worry tonight. It wants to think of all possible things I forgot to do today. Or what will happen if we move in a month. Or what my friends are doing right now. Or how this weekends shows will go. Or wishing I didn't have any more shows. Or wondering if I should even keep pursuing acting; maybe i'd be happier doing something else. So how will that conversation go with my teacher/friend Tracy when I tell her that I need to take more time off class to find out if I really want this or not! (breath)  

ugh! I just want to sleep. I didn't get home till 1 am last night after Val's show at the Whisky Agogo. Maybe that's why I can't sleep now. Whatever it is? I just want it to stop. I feel like I have been anxious about life for well over a month now. I wake up anxious. I didn't use to be like that. I need to get back to feeling like myself again. Maybe I need to meditate or do yoga every day. Take time to clear my head, to consciously relax, since i can't seem to relax even when I'm asleep these days.